Dear John....

Hey babe.

Happy Father's Day :)

I just want you to know a few things...

You are amazing.

I never thought I would find someone to love my children as their own. I wondered at times if they would have someone to throw baseballs with, or to teach them how to ride a bike, or to teach them how to crawl over a fence with out "squishing their nuts".... :)

I've told you this a hundred times probably but losing Ryan to me will probably always be easier then the feelings that came with knowing that I had 3 boys who lost their dad. The hardest conversation I have ever had in my life was when I had to sit down and tell Zakari that his daddy had died.

But now....

They have a "dad". Yes, they will always have a daddy but.... you are a wonderful father to them. You raise them as if you made them and for that I don't think I could ever actually show you how appreciative I am. Sure, we have areas that don't always meet on the "parenting" front but in the big picture, they are very trivial. The boys look up to you and they love you.

I hope we try to show you on ALL days how much we love you.... not just one.

Love,

Dana, Zakari, Izeah, and Zane :)