Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Moody Days....

I just realized that I haven't posted in awhile and it shocked even me! Sat down and thought for a second and realized.... I'm not even fired up about much right now.... Been kinda in a slump the last few days, well ok, more like the last few weeks I think. Just kind of movin through life right now and embracing my down and sometimes sour mood.

I think it has a lot to do with the season too though....
I get so excited about winter right before it hits! I get all electrified when I feel the cool air hit my face in the mornings and when the clouds start rolling in. Makes me realize that my exhausting summer days are about to be rewarded with some cold winter nights. When I get to light my fireplace and snuggle on the couch under blankets. Sometimes I even sleep there, with the fire burning all night casting an enchanting yellow glow to my living room. Then the holidays come and it's time for sweaters, family, comfort foods, vacation days, and lots of laughter. I get to run around like crazy on the big holidays and even though I complain sometimes, I enjoy every minute. Friends that have become disconnected suddenly reappear in your life and it feels wonderful! There's also the first snow fall..... All that fluffy white snow falling down to earth so slowly and almost guided, to land on top of each other and cover our world in an illuminating white blanket. Waking up in the morning to a snow day and realizing that you don't have to get out of bed either! Taking time in the mornings and cooking breakfast that's hot and fills your belly full of warmth because it's too cold to go outside.


So see? I love winter! In the beginning that is....

NOW I'M READY FOR IT TO BE DONE!!!!!!




It's THAT time of year now.... the time of year when I have already spread salt on my driveway and shoveled more times then my back cares to remember. When I go outside and come back in and my socks are wet because the snow got in my shoes! When I can feel my children bursting at the seams because they have been cooped up in a house to protect them from the cold for 3 LOOOOOONG months. I'm tired of putting on layers of clothing for myself and layering up the kids just to run out for a minute. I'm tired of looking for all the lost gloves, hats, boots, snowpants, etc. I really am tired of trying to run enough heaters in the kitchen because my dishwasher and hot water lines freeze every day it drops below 10 degrees outside. I'm realizing now that the food was a little too good during the holiday season because I'm squeezing my extra five pounds into my jeans from last summer and it does NOT feel good....


Needless to say, i think I know why my mood has been down.... I'm very much an outside kind of person and sitting in the house gets boring and makes my mood turn to blah and mush.... I'm ready for the SPRING! I'm ready to hear the birds chirping when i wake up, and feel the warm sun on my face through the window.... I'm ready to sit outside after the kids go to bed and listen to the sounds of life everywhere. I'm ready to dig in the dirt and plant my garden. I'm ready to spend the evenings out in the back yard throwing baseballs at Zak and watching Izeah and Zane go down the slide and dig in the sand (neighborhood litter) box!



SO NOW I'M TRYING TO THINK ABOUT SPRING!!!



So anyway, that was kind of just a vent and a ramble to help me through this mood.... thanks for listening!!

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Excellent thoughts and feelings, all of which we all share with you in the Midwest.
Have a few crossed off your list, just a few!!!! :)
Hang in there, Spring is just around the corner and I'll be getting some new chickens and baby lambs.... The birth of the season is just around the corner.

3 moons and the sea said...

yeah.....I am TOTALLY there with you. I could have written this post. happy thoughts, happy thoughts, lol. we need to get together soon, but of course, I am sick AGAIN *eye roll* and the stock market......lets just stop now, lol. love ya sista ;)

3 moons and the sea said...

okay, just reread your post and now I am pissed off at winter. burn in hell winter, burn. Can we say "seasonal affective disorder"?