Dear John....

Hey babe.

Happy Father's Day :)

I just want you to know a few things...

You are amazing.

I never thought I would find someone to love my children as their own. I wondered at times if they would have someone to throw baseballs with, or to teach them how to ride a bike, or to teach them how to crawl over a fence with out "squishing their nuts".... :)

I've told you this a hundred times probably but losing Ryan to me will probably always be easier then the feelings that came with knowing that I had 3 boys who lost their dad. The hardest conversation I have ever had in my life was when I had to sit down and tell Zakari that his daddy had died.

But now....

They have a "dad". Yes, they will always have a daddy but.... you are a wonderful father to them. You raise them as if you made them and for that I don't think I could ever actually show you how appreciative I am. Sure, we have areas that don't always meet on the "parenting" front but in the big picture, they are very trivial. The boys look up to you and they love you.

I hope we try to show you on ALL days how much we love you.... not just one.

Love,

Dana, Zakari, Izeah, and Zane :)

Where did Zane go???

• My kids are SNEAKY. V-E-R-Y.... S-N-E-A-K-Y.
  


• Where is Zane this morning????
  


• His bed is empty...

• But alas... I hear something (a very quiet something) in Zak's room....

• Upon closer inspection....
  

• Turns out, he just really wanted to play with Zak's baseball cards :-)
  


• Good Morning!

I'm BACK!

• Yeah.... so this is a "catch up post" :-)

• It's been all sorts of fun around here lately!

• First off... we took our trip to Kansas. It was very fast and of course there wasn't time enough in the 2 days to see everyone we wanted to or to do all the things we wanted to but here are some pics of the time we did have...

• Kids in the car! Not to bad on "roomyness"!

• Me and my Gracie Jean :)

• Apparently Izeah LOVES BBQ ribs!

• Zak, Izeah, and my Uncle Jerry who I haven't seen in oh... 7 years or so?

• Family shot right before heading out of town!

• Then.... IZEAH GRADUATED PRESCHOOL!!! It was very exciting for him of course :-) Apparently tho, (and I swear I didn't know this) but he gets very upset when people are watching him.... hence the tears in the 2nd picture :)

• (I love this pic of him!)

• Also... if anyone is a garden buff I'm sure you'll understand this one... we had to REPLANT over HALF our garden! That really sucks ass but it should be worth it in a few months :) John talked to a horticulturist about why none of my seeds were coming up and it's just been too cold he said... that's what I was thinking in the first place... I mean, it's JUNE and I'm still wearing a hoodie on a lot of nights!

• So, some $40 later... it should grow!
  
  
• Lastly (if anyone is still reading this...) I've started my own etsy shop! If anyone cares.... stop on over! Right now I have some vintage items listed... I'll be putting up my hand made knits soon, and I have over 100 more vintage sewing patterns to list as well! (It takes FOR---EV---ER to list stuff!)
• Well... until next time... ;-)